I think one of the best lessons I learned from my Mom’s cancer diagnosis is certainty of uncertainty. We may think we are certain; of our day, our life, our tasks, our joys, but I never knew how comfortable I was with uncertainty until I saw my Mom fight fearlessly with a positive attitude. The vessel of uncertainty fills with hope, faith and love for all that we have and acceptance of what it is within our control. Be certain that when faced with uncertainty you have the power within; your faith, hope, joy and love of life will sustain.
Do you believe it? How many times have you said that or thought it about something? Well, this year I did! A lot! It wasn’t until about yesterday and reflecting on the past year, I had an Aha moment, believe it!
This past year, I was named the AstraZeneca Hope Lodge of the American Cancer Society Volunteer of the Year. I was honored, shocked and felt like what is the big deal because I am doing something I enjoy with others, helping many people and we have fun doing it! I had no idea, so much so that when I was being presented with the award, I had no clue that I was the one they were describing and talking about until they said my name! Some people may say that is a humble quality, but as I looked back on this year and thought about big moments, I really need to appreciate the honor that comes along with the hard work I do, that at times I don’t see as hard work because I am too busy doing what I enjoy, value and helping others.
Recently, I started a new job and in this new position I’ve realized a lot about myself and the qualities I possess which I again took for granted. As I thought more about it, the more I channel my joy, passion into something the work ethic and time invested is greater because of the joy. Now, this is not to say that everything is always easy where there is joy because if that is the case there would never be growth if isn’t wasn’t a challenge. The joy, passion, vision give us the zest to push through the challenge.
Where does the recognition come in when we are so invested in something that we continually pursue it as in my case being named the Volunteer of the Year? I never entered being a volunteer at the Hope Lodge to be named the volunteer of the year, I turned to volunteering with cancer patients and their families after a very personal experience of losing my Mom to cancer unexpectedly. The only recognition I yearned for was how can I bring more people in to volunteer at the Hope Lodge, help people going through a cancer diagnosis? Finding my why is what brought me there, so even though I know my why and found my passion, I need to learn not to take it for granted! Believe in your successes as little or as big as they may be because what you take for granted may be what inspires others whether your know it or not!
The more I believe in my passion, successes and work, I believe the recognition in myself. If you never recognize your successes and feel it, how does your work reflect the joy? Now, I am not saying I am going around “tooting my horn” and wearing a shirt that says “Volunteer of the Year.”! I will at least give myself enough recognition in my head and heart that I know who the heck people are talking about, ha! It’s about self care. Think about it, someone has said to you I am sure, I love those shoes and you probably say thanks so much, they are from DSW! They can see it! So, when someone compliments you on your character everything we don’t see immediately on the outside, don’t take it for granted because you are aren’t wearing your passion as a necklace but rather in your heart.
This year as I head into 2019, my vision for the year is to not take my joys, passions, thoughts for granted, but instead appreciate the moments, recognition and appreciate my character, just as much as new pair of shoes and take the compliment from myself and others~from the shoes to the heart!
Back in March, I rededicate myself to wellness. It sounds a little like a baptism of some sort! I made a conscious effort to get to classes; spinning, bootcamp, zumba, yoga. The smorgasbord board of aerobic activity I’d say. There were days when I was at work thinking I don’t want too, but I remembered how good I felt when the class was over. Who really after working all day wants to plank, throw a tire or lift weights. The more consistent I got in doing classes, the easier and more enjoyable they are. What do “they” say it takes 21 days to create a habit. Well, I think it takes a lot more than that. I love the people I go with, location is convenient, the center is awesome, I feel great doing the classes and my workout clothes are comfy. It takes a lot more than 21 days. The discipline of getting to the gym grounds me. Make yourself a priority, it’s not selfish at all because you are investing in your future. Take it one plank at a time!
Sometimes when we are so close to achieving our goal, everything we can control is in place, we’ve done our best and then we wait. The wait can be filled with doubt, right? I think sometimes our thoughts can get in the way of our own plan, no one else is saying give up, but sometimes our own self talk gets in the way. Why? Worry, the more we worry the more we feel like we are working and maybe the more positive we are the more we think it’s an illusion. There are no illusions, you deserve happiness and fullness. Don’t give up, you are only given one life, live it and believe in what you are doing because if you don’t, who will. Remember, when you are rejected you are being guided to something better for you even if it takes time to see it and get there.
I realized the other day as embrassing as it is, I have to stop and really think about how many days are in a month. Just when I remember we are on to a new month. February, February, forget it, are we in the leap year or not? Seriously, it is the little things in life that you just have to laugh at. Yes, I know there is a song and poem, but honestly, I may of been absent the day that was taught because I can’t remember that either. My Mom would joke that I was dropped as a baby on my head, maybe that’s true! I can remember a lot, but the months, forget it. I practice, but rely on my calendar. Did this ever happen to you? My favorite pizza shop closes for a week in the summer, I glanced at the date and thought, that can’t be right because it’s a Wednesday, then I thought that’s right there is 31 days in July. I even said it aloud, I started laughing and thank goodness the cashier laughed too.
My point is, laugh at yourself because you are not perfect, keep your sense of humor and be genuine because the days run short even if we forget how many there are, be grateful for them.