Good grief!

Good grief! I am sure you’ve heard those words together, but why? What’s so great about grief? Nothing and everything! My Mom passed in 2010 of cancer, unexpectedly and let’s just say at the time there was nothing good about my grief through my Mom’s passing. Literally, my heart ached, I cried so much that I was choking through tears, nothing anyone could say made me feel better, nothing! I cried for my Mom’s suffering, the thought of her pain, the years missed that she spent looking forward too, the pain of others losing her that loved her so much and the list goes on! What was so good in that grief? Pain. Loss. Tears. Love. Time. Life goes on. It took years for me to see the good in the grief and it was hard because for so long I thought that the more I felt and lived the loss, the more I showed my Mom I loved her. Wrong. Good grief, reflecting on how my Mom would want all those that she loved to live. Live the life that she lost and resonate the joy, strength, grace, kindness, love she had for others and this life. Good grief!Image result for grief

 

What’s your perspective?

Is the glass half full or half empty? It’s all in perspective right?

I choose to see my glass as half full and as I mentioned the other day in my post about believing in my own honors; don’t doubt your successes, passions, recognition that you are given and certainly don’t neglect your honors. If you don’t see your own successes, how do you expect anyone else to see it! Time is precious, choose wisely.

2019, you better believe it!

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Do you believe it? How many times have you said that or thought it about something? Well, this year I did! A lot! It wasn’t until about yesterday and reflecting on the past year,  I had an Aha moment, believe it!

This past year, I was named the AstraZeneca Hope Lodge of the American Cancer Society Volunteer of the Year. I was honored, shocked and felt like what is the big deal because I am doing something  I enjoy with others, helping many people and we have fun doing it!  I had no idea,  so much so that when I was being presented with the award, I had no clue that I was the one they were describing and talking about until they said my name!  Some people may say that is a humble quality, but as I looked back on this year and thought about big moments, I really need to appreciate the honor that comes along with the hard work I do, that at times I don’t see as hard work because I am too busy doing what I enjoy, value and  helping others.

Recently, I started a new job and in this new position I’ve realized a lot about myself and the qualities I possess which I again took for granted. As I thought more about it, the more I channel my joy, passion into something the work ethic and time invested is greater because of the joy.  Now, this is not to say that everything is always easy where there is joy because if that is the case there would never be growth if isn’t wasn’t a challenge. The joy, passion, vision give us the zest to push through the challenge.

Where does the recognition come in when we are so invested in something that we continually pursue it as in my case being named the Volunteer of the Year? I never entered being a volunteer at the Hope Lodge to be named the volunteer of the year, I turned to volunteering with cancer patients and their families after a very personal experience of losing my Mom to cancer unexpectedly.  The only recognition I yearned for was how can I bring more people in to volunteer at the Hope Lodge, help people going through a cancer diagnosis? Finding my why is what brought me there, so even though I know my why and found my passion, I need to learn not to take it for granted! Believe in your successes as little or as big as they may be because what you take for granted may be what inspires others whether your know it or not!

The more I believe in my passion, successes and work, I believe the recognition in myself. If you never recognize your successes and feel it, how does your work reflect the joy? Now, I am not saying I am going around “tooting my horn” and wearing a shirt that says “Volunteer of the Year.”!  I will at least give myself enough recognition in my head and heart that I know who the heck people are talking about, ha! It’s about self care. Think about it, someone has said to you I am sure, I love those shoes and you probably say thanks so much, they are from DSW! They can see it! So, when someone compliments you on your character everything we don’t see immediately on the outside, don’t take it for granted because you are aren’t wearing your passion as a necklace but rather in your heart.

This year as I head into 2019, my vision for the year is to not take my joys, passions,  thoughts for granted, but instead appreciate the moments, recognition and appreciate my character, just as much as new pair of shoes and take the compliment from myself and others~from the shoes to the heart!

Why?

Sometimes, I just want to know why,  what’s the reason or purpose in the situation,  why am I here in this situation? Any situation,  getting stuck in traffic, why me? What is this situation preparing me for? Why? The past is my best answer,  when I look back and think to prior situations,  it always worked out for the best and prepared me for the future. You may say, you are just looking on the bright side or thinking too much. No, no, no way. We are put on a path for a reason; chosen or not, steps building on steps; getting us to where we need to go, whether we agree or disagree, one step at a time! 

Find the beat and feel it! 

Change, whether you ask for it or it just lands in your lap, change brings many emotions.

Find the beat and feel it, feel it, like Elaine on Seinfeld found her groove on that dance floor! If you’re  not feeln it, change that channel and find your song. Embrace that beat!

Change for me is something that challenges me, but at the same time, for a bit, I chase it, beat myself up and tell myself everything I would never tell a friend and some how think the FBI is going to track me down, tell me I’m a big fat phony and then remind myself, that I’m completely crazy. Then, I move on and start feeling the beat and realize I turned the channel for a reason, go ahead girl, you got this! I remind myself that I am my own worst critic and I found the beat and now, I am allowing myself to feel it and embrace the change, but by keeping the faith that everything happens for a reason.