I choose no for yes!

I choose No.
For so long after my Mom died, I suddenly thought I had to say yes to everything and everyone because in a weird way, I had to prove I was OK, I am fine and can do it all. Suddenly, I just wanted to please everyone because I thought I needed too, it was so uncomfortable because I lost my voice. I needed to go on and be happy and just  keep busy. What I was doing was fooling everyone by saying yes and dying inside because I really wanted no, I was so mentally and emotionally exhausted that I didn’t have it in me to say no, so  exhausted which turned  into physical exhaustion that turned into shingles. That’s when my voice and confidence came back! It had too, I had no choice.  It took awhile but my confidence to be myself again and not feel the need to fool others by saying yes and pretending.
I choose no, because I know what’s best for me. I choose no,  because it brings me balance and peace. I choose no,  because I know my limits. I choose no,  because I respect myself and others to give of my best self. I choose no,  because it’s led to yes. Yes, I am truly happy, confident, peaceful, joyful and strong enough.


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