It was like my Mother’s passing gave way to every feeling I had and with no apologies. No, it wasn’t and isn’t an excuse to be angry or just nasty, to me that’s not ok, but instead, in time, a comfort of living among feeling more. There are no apologies for the way I am feeling. I believe the grief process, especially losing a Mom leaves you so vulnerable and open to the crashing wave of grief, that when it hits, it hits and that is ok. Grieving has allowed me to see, no one needs an explanation or an apology for a feeling. You are, how you are feeling and it’s no one’s business.