It’s not right, but it’s ok!

There is a Whitney Houston song that goes a little something like this, “it’s not right, but it’s ok…..I am going to make it anyway…..” Yes, the song was Whitney’s way of asserting herself and her independence after a break up.  However, more and more, I think about the loss of my Mom, a woman who was just a pure joy, insightful, loving, real woman to be around, a person that you could feel her love, warmth, compassion for you while in her presence.  I am the kind of person that has to find the “why” or the “lesson” in life’s moments, some times it takes awhile, but like my Mom, there was no feeling sorry, it is what it is. In fact, my Mom even said, she was blessed in life and this is what God gave her to do, cancer. As life goes on, I think about the why a lot. Yes, there are moments of sadness, I wish my Mom were here to see, do, feel. She does and she is here, in spirit with all the people who loved her and whom she loved.  What about the why? Why was such a wonderful person made to suffer through cancer and leave this Earth too soon with so much left to do? I believe, she did it, she served God’s purpose for herself and her family and all that loved her. She was so brave and positive in her fight against cancer and truly did all she could. Which is exactly how she lived her life, doing all she could in a positive way. Now, she is an Angel. I still struggle at times, with why and how was a person as good as my Mom taken so soon, but like Whitney said, it’s not right, but it’s ok. I feel in some way, we are better for the love and legacy my Mom left behind, better than ok. She did more than fulfill God’s purpose, she left us with more purpose because of the person she was and the love she shared.

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